*FINGERS CROSSED!*

I have what I hope will be amazing news: I was finally prescribed Zofran! I've heard a few people talk about it absolutely saving their lives - it allowed them to function. That's all I desperately want to do. I got the Phenergan and my body rejected it. Every time I tried to take it, it came right back up within 10 seconds. I tried taking it a number of ways too: with different kinds of drinks, with food, with a spoonful of ice cream, half a pill, a crushed pill, etc.. It was no use. So I called back the doctor and within an hour they had prescribed me Zofran. Because the last medicine didnt work, I'm feeling more and more hopeless that I'm just doomed to live through this sickness until it passes. But I'm really hoping that this works - fingers crossed! You have no idea how much I would love to function! Hahahaha. My first attempt will be tomorrow morning.... so I will let you know how it goes after I've tried it!

Oh, and I DID get to go out with Beth and TJ last night and I'm glad I did. We went to Roadhouse Grill and just visited. It was nice. But it took all day for me to build up to going out at 7 pm - it was brutally intense but I'm glad I made it through. 

OSCAR NOTES:

- My favorite dress at the Oscars that I saw last night was Anne Hathaway:

- Reese Witherspoon looked absolutely beautiful and she had my favorite hair look of the night:

- Finally, did you see little Hailee Steinfeld?? She was so stinkin' adorable! I loved her look (very appropriate for the 14 year old she is) and she was so cute with her interviews. She was amazing in True Grit!

And a shout out goes to The King's Speech for winning Best Picture! 

And The Oscar For Best Sick Pregnant Lady In The Movie Called Life Goes To...

So it doesnt look like I'll be able to see Beth and TJ tonight =( I'm just so stinkin' sick! Curses!!! You know what I really hate? Building up enough energy just to take a shower and just barely making it through. I just want to enjoy taking a shower and get back to my normal activities!!! Is that really too much to ask? It's been 4 1/2 weeks straight of this. Please no more!!!! =(

I guess I'll be stuck in tonight watching the Oscars. Maybe. I usually cant even watch television or movies very well as I get sick looking at the screen and I mainly have to focus on my breathing. Man oh man, this is rough.

I Wish I May, I Wish I Might....

I really wish I could get better TONIGHT! .....And stay that way!

As more time passes, I feel more and more useless.....

Bye Bye Bentlee & Marlee! =(

Today Bentlee went to a new home. It was a long time coming but now it's official. When I first got him for my birthday from Tony, I thought he was the cutest thing ever. I worked with him day in and day out to train him and I loved on him like crazy. But as he got older, his personality emerged more and as time went on, it was clear he wasnt a good fit for us. But me not wanting to give up, I kept working with him and working with him. Finally, when I learned I was pregnant, and I got so sick, everything went out the window. With Tony workng full time and me not feeling well at all, Bnetlee just wasnt getting the attention he needed. He started acting out even more than usual and it was becoming extremely difficult to take care of him, especially in the current condition. So after months of working with him, spending hundreds of dollars on him, and him costing us thousands of dollars (we have to get our place re-carpeted because he completely ruined it with accidents and many rips and tears along the edges), it was finally time to say good bye. He wasnt the right fit for our family and he would do much better in a new location. After spending about a month interviewing people and doing background checks, we finally picked a girl and her fiance. They live in Washington, she hardly works, and they have another Doxie. Plus her sister also has two Doxies, as well. So he will be surrounded by people who can give him more time and a more consistent schedule, as well as a bunch of new friends! I hopes by him being there, he can grow into the best dog I know he can be. While it was a relief, it was also sad for me and I cried a bit. Tomorrow will be even harder as we have to give Marlee to a new home too because of partly the same situation as Bentlee (being cooped up all day, hardly taken for walks, and just not enough attention), and I've also unfortunately developed an allergy to him. So this is a hard week for me, along with being so sick. 

Oh and I just learned that Tony's brother TJ and his wife Beth will be coming up this weekend, so that's just one more thing to get ready for. I really hope I start feeling better so I can go to dinner with them since they wont be here long at all!

Bentlee - I hope you thrive in your new home with your little friends and new parents. I'm sorry we couldnt give you what you needed from us =(

Marlee - You are a beautiful dog; smart, loyal, outgoing, and sweet. I HATE to have to give you up but I know it's selfish if I keep you. I really hope that you remember us because we love you sooo much and hate to see you go! =(

We'll miss both of you boys!

Cereal Addict

So my biggest craving so far and main thing that I can eat is cereal. I've always liked cereal but honestly hardly ever ate it. My favorite is Trix - I had it all while growing up. When I got older, I just didnt eat breakfast as much; it made me sick to eat too early. So I only ever ended up eating cereal on camping trips or vacays... Just randomly. But now, I am eating Wheaties like crazy. It's simple, plain, and tastes so good to me. Of course, I still want other things - I just cant eat them right now. So I'm glad I've found something. The only problem is that we ran out last night. And I want a bowl so badly right now - the thing is, once I get it in my head what I want to eat and what I KNOW I can eat, I start to crave it intensely and my stomach starts to hurt. It's crazy insane until I get it! I've craved stuff before but this feels like a life or death thing - it's so weird!

UPDATE! Tony just called and is getting off early because of the "snow day" so he's stopping to get Wheaties! Haha yay! Now I just have to power through this intense time until he gets here!

Harder Than I Thought

I've been keeping my goal to write at least something every day but it's a little more difficult than I thought. Ever since I found out I was preggers, I've basically been sick and it's really hard to muster up the energy to write a blog. I do apologize for my sometimes lame blog entries. I promise they will get better in time! I have so many things I want to write about, voice my concerns on, rant about, rave about, ask about - you name it. I am just so sick that I dont feel up to writing about anything I'm thinking about. But the day will come soon so just keep hanging on because I want all of your opinions and suggestions! =)

A Good Thing?

So after calling in, the doctor finally prescribed me meds. I really wanted Zofran but the insurance companies dont like it and it's like $500 a bottle. Ugh. So I was prescribed Phenergan, which is a sleep aid. I'm nervous to take it because even though my doctor recommended it, it says that it has not been proven to be completely safe for pregnant women and that it can also affect breastfeeding. With me already being nervous with meds in general, that's not a good thing for me to hear. However, Tony is picking it up tonight and I will go from there. We did pick up some Vitamin B6 and Unisom, as also referred by my doctor. I have a taken a couple Unisom pills and so far, they seem to take away the nausea pretty good but they also make me extremely lethargic so I have absolutely no energy. It's basically taking away one thing and giving me another. I still cant function right one way or another. I so badly want to get up and clean my house! Just to do something! So I will keep trying things and hopefully we hit the nail on the head with something soon!

Thanks for all your wishes and prayers during this time. They are much appreciated :)

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Miserable. There's nothing much else I can say but that I'm sorry I'm such a lame blogger as of late.

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SICKEST

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SICKER

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SICK

=]

I got to visit with my grandparents tonight and I'm very happy about it. I'm super close with them and I hadn't seen them for 3 weeks. Weird since I'm used to seeing them at least once a week, if not more, and I talk to them once a week or more on the phone. I tell them everything. I felt sick, but it was sooooo nice to see them! :)

My Evening

Nada

I dont have much to say today..... It's just been another sick day. BUT I think we may have found Bentlee a home. So progress there! Now I'm just laying in bed with my honey watching America's Funniest Home Videos. Good night!

Happy What Day?

Happy Sick Day! ....uh, I mean, Happy Valentine's Day! My day has consisted of being hunched over the toilet and taking care of the huge mess Bentlee made in the living room. He destroyed SO much stuff. Such fun. Tony had to work longer than usual today so he's headed home now and will be picking up a heart shaped pizza. Then we will watch The Bachelor. Aren't you jealous of our awesome Valentine's Day? Ahhh so romantic. It could be worse though, and I am SO grateful and blessed with what I have. I hope everyone has a wonderful day with their loved ones! XOXO

Well Well Well...

You know, I must say, that so far, I'm not having the greatest time. This pregnancy is hard on me. Really hard. I'm sick basically all the time except for really late at night, I cant fall asleep because I'm so uncomfortable (and I'm not even big yet!), I have mad cravings but I cant take care of any of them, my face is breaking out like crazy, I feel bloated and gross even though I'm throwing up my stomach lining (at least that's what it feels like - I swear there's nothing left in there so I can stop being nauseous now, thank you!!), and I have to go to the doctor (which is one of my greatest dislikes, no matter WHAT it's for). 

So. To sum up:

I'm not having fun.

And if anyone leaves a comment telling me that it will pass, please save it. I've heard it a million trillion times, and while it may be true (although we dont know for sure when it will pass, if at all, because every pregnancy is different), it still doesnt help with the here and now. It just reminds me of how long I potentially could have to go with this and while I'm living it, it seems to last FOREVER. I dont mean to sound rude (blame it on the hormones if you will), but I'm just trying to be honest. Sigh.

My Dearest Tonington

Wishing my wonderful husband, Tony, a very happy birthday today! He's 24 years old and will be a daddy in 7 months! I cant believe that by his next birthday we will have a 5 month old!! Those are crazy thoughts! 

I love you, baby love.

And The Due Date Is.....

My mom took me to the doctor for my first appointment this morning, up at OHSU. It's really nice in the new Women's Center. But that didnt help with the nausea. Of course, I was sick all morning and it took everything I had to get up, take a shower, get going, and drive all the way down town. But we made it and I didnt throw up the entire time we were out. THANK GOD. I think it's partially due to my fear of doing something humiliating like that in public. I'm just strong - willed, I guess. But that doesnt mean that I felt wonderful - I still felt pretty miserable. But at least we got in there, got registered with all my information in the system, and received a lot of info on all the things I wanted to know about. I had to do a couple tests, including a blood test, which get this: I have never had my blood drawn before. Ever. So that was new. I looked away, not because I'm scared of needles or have a problem with blood, but because I was already feeling so sick, I didnt think I needed that extra dose. When she was done and had me all wrapped up, she realized she had forgotten a vial that she needed to fill so she had to poke me again!! It was lovely. And finally, my approximate due date is September 20th, 2011! Of course, we know that this can go either way, but now we have a more valid date!

Exciting, exciting. I have a fantastic invasive exam on the March 1st, so until then, I will rest up, and hopefully get the medicine they said they would probably prescribe for me *Please, Please!*

My mom got me a Coke slushie (which was recommended by a nurse) and it actually pumped me up a bit! We were able to look at a few stores before I started feeling sick again (which is a HUGE accomplishment - it's the most I've been out since this all started). And after coming home to take a nap, I think Tony and I are going out to eat and to a movie tonight! Yay! Hopefully this lasts because today could just be a fluke... But I will take it for now. We might not have another chance to celebrate his birthday (tomorrow) or Valentine's Day. So thank goodness we can do something tonight!

SICK

I want to apologize for my blog posts as of late.... They are kind of lame. I'm so sick of this SICK! But the good news is, I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning so maybe they can prescribe me Zofran or something.  

*Fingers crossed!*

The appointment is at 10 am and my mom will be here at 8 am because she has to meet with someone else first and then take me to OHSU. So this means I have to get up at like 5 am because I need a few hours just to compose myself and get ready through all this sickness. Ugh. Wish me luck!!

Mad Cravings

Here's my dilemma: 

I constantly have a feeling of nausea, that just sits there in my throat basically all day. I do a lot of dry heaving. I've got a handle on it to the point where I know when I shouldnt eat. I never really end up throwing up, just dry heaving. So I basically live off a few crackers and lots of water all day long, until about 7 or 8 in the evening, when I can manage to get something slightly more substantial down. When the midnight hour hits though, I usually feel like I could eat something, an actual meal even. I havent done it yet, so who knows if it would actually stay down. but at least I feel like I can. The thing is, everything is closed then - so I usually end up eating an apple or a piece of turkey meat or some soup. Here's my thing though - all day (and yes, sometimes it makes me sicker), I cant help but think of alllll the things I really really want to eat. I decided to blog about all the things that I've been seriously craving, maybe in the hopes that I wont crave it as much if I write it down. Hahahaha. It's worth a shot. 

Number one craving of all:

- A big plate of spaghetti from Spag Fac, with their french bread and salad with creamy pesto sauce. Oh Lord, I have been craving this like no other and want it sooooo bad!!! But I wont go until I feel 100% better, when I know I can eat everything.... But that is the first place I will be, you can bet on that!!

Top 5 cravings:

- A piece of pizza or a bowl of nachos from my college dorm food lounge (NO JOKE - I know that's a little harder to come by, but they had awesome food!)

- Ritz Bitz with cheese in the middle (not peanut butter)

- Chocolate chip cookies and a big glass of milk

- Cheeseburger and fries with honey mustard dipping sauce 

- Caesar salad with chicken

Things I have managed to eat and kept down:

- Ritz crackers with low salt

- Apple slices

- One piece of pepperoni pizza

- Mint ice cream (the white kind, not the green kind)

- Pieces of turkey meat

- Sierra Mist

- Water

- Prenatal vitamins (gummy vitamins)

(And a random bite of something here and there - but only a bite)

Such is life.

Kid Friendly

So Tuesdays have become kind of "kid - centered" regarding the television schedule:

Seriously Funny Kids

One Born Every Minute

Teen Mom

Happy Birthday, Lia!

I'm not feeling too well today but I did just want to give a shout out to my little sister who turned 12 today:

Happy birthday, Leels - I love you! :)

We went to La Carreta for dinner with the whole family and we had a nice time. We just finished the night with The Bachelor..... whoooie, Michelle. My goodness. 

Possibly The Worst Superbowl Halftime Show Ever?

2011's Superbowl halftime show with The Black Eyed Peas was probably the worst performance I have ever seen live. Fergie was unbelievably horrible and they just sounded like robots. Everything was totally off. I think this speaks for itself:

2011 Superbowl Halftime Show 

On a side note: today has been a horrible dry heaving day. 

She's Having A Baby!

I felt the need to get out any movies or shows we have on babies. You know, just to watch all the fun hilarious takes on it. I've pulled out such titles as:

~ Baby Mama

~ Father of the Bride Part II

~ Knocked Up

~ The Back-Up Plan

~ Raising Arizona

~ Juno

~ Where The Heart Is

~ The Object of My Affection

They are all piled up by my tv. And, of course, my collection wouldnt be complete without seasons 4, 5, & 8 of Friends =] 

I've also started watching that new show on Lifetime called One Born Every Minute. It just premiered last Tuesday and it's quite interesting. Oh, and I want to see the movie, She's Having A Baby, since apparently it's a classic. I'll probably Netflix it.

Best. Source. Ever.

We had a great night out with Mark, Lori, and Brandon tonight! I'm glad I felt well enough to go. They took us to Jerusalem Cafe (which Lori had always raved about but I had never been yet) and Tony and I shared the garlic chicken and rice. Their rice was really soft so it settled in my stummy okay. Then we headed over to Cinetopia (which I looove) and saw Sanctum in 3D. I'm claustrophobic so some of the scenes made me tense up pretty good, but it was a fun movie. We had a really great time - so BIG thanks to them for taking us out! :)

Of course, now I'm sick again though, so I'll keep this short. I did want to mention how much I love www.babycenter.com. It's sooo great! I signed up for the newsletter and I get great emails. I actually stumbled across the site when I typed a random pregnancy question into Google back when we first found out. After we announced the news the other day, a bunch of people started recommending it to me... so I must be doing something right! :) Thanks, guys!

Grateful

I just have to say how grateful I am for everyone's kind words and thoughts. It really means a lot to me and it helps me get through this rough patch of sickness just a little bit better :)

One more time, an apology goes out to anyone who was offended they found out on Facebook first instead of a personal phone call. It was not our intention to make anyone feel bad - we've just had a lot going on over here and it was the quickest way to inform everyone. We love you all and are so grateful for your support! 

Everyone keeps telling me they think it will be a girl because apparently you have more morning sickness with a girl.... but who knows? ;) We will be excited either way. 

I do have to say though, that while we are totally blessed on receiving something that we've always wanted, I'm also scared out of my mind because the idea of childbirth has always terrified me. I'm hoping I can get a handle on it completely and be at peace with it before everything kicks in haha. But for those of you who have known me for a long time, you've known this craziness. They go hand in hand with each other and yet, I want one so badly and I'm scared to death of the other. 

Oh well, I gotta man up and do it, right? I have no choice!! :) With all your support, I'm sure it will just strengthen me. For that, I'm truly thankful. 

Special thanks goes out to:

* My parents who have helped me get appointments set up and brought me food (when I can get it down).

* My grandparents for being so happy they cried, which in turn made me cry :)

* My best friend, Kimberly, who has given me tons of ideas and advice because she wants to make sure me and baby are as healthy as can be...

* Beth who has made me feel like a sister and is there for me 100%!

* Christal who has left me many kind comments and suggestions which I am truly appreciative of.

* TONY because he has been so amazing. He has kept up with the pets, the housework, the errands, and sick ol' me while still working full time (overtime too)! That just shows me how much I can count on him... It's not easy for me to be in this position and I'm sure it's harder on him, too....but he's been wonderful (and he apologizes to everyone he didnt call either but he's so exhausted)!

Thank you EVERYONE for being wonderful and helpful!

Positive!

So as most of you know, I've been incredibly sick the last week. Well, there IS a reason to the madness..... I am indeed pregnant! We found out a few weeks ago. I had no morning sickness whatsoever until last week. And let me tell you, it's ALL DAY SICKNESS. This is seriously the sickest I have ever been. I'm so queasy that I can hardly eat anything. I've been munching on Ritz crackers, grapes, apples, water, and Sierra Mist. I havent officially thrown up, as I havent eaten much, but I have dry heaved quite a few times. I hadnt seen the outside of my bedroom for 3 days until tonight (and I was still pretty dang queasy). Taking a shower is a chore. I can barely make it through. To think I could have weeks more of this freaks me out. I have so much to do and no time! I'm constantly worrying about the house and laundry and errands and all that stuff that I know wont matter if I do it next week. But then there's my little sister's birthday, Tony's birthday, Valentine's Day, and house-hunting (which we have a time crunch on) and all that is a little more unnerving. So lots of prayers that I can get over this quickly! I would appreciate it. 

I'm already taking the prenatal vitamins - they are gummy vitamins since I already have such a hard time swallowing pills (and the nausea doesnt make it any easier). They taste like candy and are perfect for me right now. As for the doctor, I havent officially been yet (appointment coming up SOON!) but I have taken 5 tests, of all different brands, digital and non-digital, I've missed my period, I'm EXTREMELY sick, and I've been breaking out (which is also no fun). So I'm pretty positive we've got something cooking in there ;) Me being me though, wont be satisfied until confirmation from the doctor - haha. But dont worry, I'm doing everything I can to make sure this baby is healthy. 

Tony got me the book I always wanted when I was to get pregnant: What To Expect When You're Expecting. He also got me What To Expect: Eating Well When You're Expecting. They've been lifesavers. They've answered all my nervous questions. My main one was: I'm so sick, I can hardly eat for one. How am I supposed to eat for two? And it told me that 75% of women have morning sickness like I have and that it's even common to lose weight in the first trimester. It told me to try to munch on something as often as I could, even if it was crackers, but if I cant, at least take the vitamins. They will provide all the nutrients that my baby needs right now and there will be plenty of time to gain the weight I need in the second and third trimesters. So that calmed me down a little bit. So I'm trying my hardest, guys! :) If I'm not responding to your phone calls, texts, or emails right away, this is why - I'm just super sick.

As for what everyone's feeling over here... we are SO excited!!!! =] Everyone knows how much I have wanted children.... But I am also freaked out. I'm still getting used to the idea of my body changing and all these new feelings, and of course, after the fact: having a newborn to take care of! It's all so overwhelming and thrilling, something I've been preparing for for many years yet all of sudden not feeling prepared for at all! It's crazy. Tony is beside himself. He is so excited, it makes me happy :) He couldnt wait to tell everyone and he's a lot less nervous than I am ;) He has been so supportive and helpful while I've been sick. I cant thank him enough for all he's done so far.

So to sum up, we are thrilled but cant believe it! Prayers are appreciated throughout this time, as I am, of course, a worried frst timer. Everything that feels different freaks me out, but I remain positive because that's the best thing I can do. When I really think about it, I should have no reason to worry. Tony and I are both really healthy, we dont really have any family health problems that are major, and we are not smokers, drinkers, or drug users. It's just first time jitters and I understand that. I'm just a ball of excited nerves. 

Thanks for all your support and we will keep everyone updated! We dont have an exact due date yet (and we'll probably know more when we go to the doctor) but from my calculations, this will be a September baby! My family is joking that he or she will be born on Labor Day..... Haha. Wouldnt that be ironic! 

PS - I know this is blurry, but with my shaking hands, the camera didnt focus too well....Cross means positivo! =]

Bummer

So. I'm incredibly sick. I have not been out of my bedroom for the last couple days. It sucks majorly. I've been living in my bed. I hardly get online. After a while, tv gets annoying. And I cant focus on reading a book. It's uncomfortable to sleep. It's miserable. MISERABLE. It's taking everything I have just to write this. But one of my goals was to write a blog, post a picture, post a link, make a statement, ANYTHING, every day. So I will stick to it the best that I can. If the blogs seem short or lame for the next few days, this is why. 

Prayers would be greatly appreciated so I can get up, get out, and take care of what needs to be done!

Thanks :)